this would be me at school.
i kind of like how it’s blurry..

this is the face of someone
who day dreams a lot;
imagining things that could or could not happen.
things that she would like to happen.
things that begin with
“what if..”

this is the face of someone
who bases everyone on colour.
who is way too hard on herself.
who will have a laugh with anyone know matter what they look like.

this is the face of someone
who is a secret taylor swift fan.
the face of someone who’s never actually drank a whole can of coke.
.. the face of someone who can be the most daring person,
but still be terrified at the exact same time.

this is the face of someone who will laugh at nothing..
the face of someone who loves being asked random questions.
who would rather be at home than exploring..
who would rather be exploring than at home.

this is the face of someone who’s favourite animal is a unicorn.
who is determined to find Waldo by the end of the book.

.. the face of someone who is often very scared,
and just wants to feel
safe.

smiles :]

things are becoming so much better.
it’s making me very happy.
i’m thinking about deleting everything on here
because i don’t want to be
showing everyone
this
sad, twisted, unsure
version of me..
because as much as it is me,
it’s not me
all the time.

it’s just a part
no one will ever see..
the hidden part of me;
a secret that is no longer so secret.

i’m breaking out.

it’s weird when you actually meet people
who have inspired you so much..
and you never know what to say to them
because every word seems like nothing
compared to how you really feel.

iamblessed:

Soft (via sarah_gardner)

this.

(via artpixie)


laaalalalalaala.
people tell me i’m cute.
i never want to believe them,
but whenever i hear it,
it always makes me smile.

ANYWAY!

today was a good day.
today was one of those days.
i enjoy days like this.
aside from not attending school,
and chilling with my mom all day,
i got to go to the book store-
and got lots of hugs.
it just made me feel.

it’s hard to explain,
days like this..
it’s almost as if the
rope that i was holding onto for dear life
was slowly ripping apart,
threads falling into what’s beneath me,
but today, it seems as if
the threads were fastening
once again,
and maybe things are coming together..

maybe, all i needed was an
“i miss you”
and once hearing that,
suddenly the world just lifts up.
my fear of being forgotten had gotten the best of me.

but today, i smiled a lot.
and had an insane laughing fit
about an hour ago.
things are becoming better.

little bits of old christie are coming back
little bits of new christie are coming in clear :]
smile.
hug me.
celebrate.

first time i’ve ever worn fake eyelashes.
i rather enjoyed my makeup.
so sparkly
<3

“please, don’t go- i’ll eat you up, i love you so.”

(via ache)


as much as i love to sleep,
at this current time
i’m happier
not.

i don’t plan on going to school tomorrow.
i want to go to starbucks and sit there for 2 hours;
drinking hot chocolate.
maybe read or draw..
maybe venture into town and take pictures.

nothing seems greater right now
than
not sleeping
not eating
and not going to school.

ugh, what am i doing with my life?

i can’t forget you-
i know you want me to want you,
i want to.



in iTunes alone, i’ve listened to this song 368 times;
i listen to it at least once every day, at school.
i can’t explain it;
it just absorbs me.

i’m out of words at the moment.
life just seems to be consuming me..
everything seems quite dim.

i don’t know where i’m going..

(via ache)